Saturday, July 16, 2005
A Letter to the One God Has Prepared For Me

I am wondering at this very minute if you are thinking of me. If like me, you are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other.

Many times I thought I finally found you, only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. i get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to meet you.I am thinking of how we will meet. Would it be as romantic as I have seen in movies? Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other. Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answers to my questions.Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known "love". I do not have the answer to that question either but I believe that more often than not. We will never really know what love is until we find the right person and since I have not found you yet, and then maybe I do not know what really love is! You just don’t know how often I dream of finally knowing what if feels like to be in your arms. Even at this moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! Perhaps I would be drawn to you by you smile or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by you silly little ways!I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the right time comes. I think of all the pain I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of ME-the life I shall spend with you. In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all that pain and sacrifice.After all the tears has become part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect-for YOU! I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey.But my dearest one, please don't ever give up because I am right here. Patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other; I would slowly heal those wounds by my LOVE!

At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beautiful sky. Hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens above thinking that in time they would reach you and when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are always in my dreams. It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold onto you. In my dreams, you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love.
And this, all the more makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with hope that soon enough you will no longer be a dream but a reality and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait. And when the time comes, everything will fall into its place just as I had imagined, thought and dreamed. Just as I had believed it would be. By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst of the joys of life- and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you!

n the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dreams and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow the directions. Don't worry. Don't be afraid of getting lost. God saw to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow, leads to me.

Friday, July 15, 2005

Last night, me and my girlfriends just decided to hang out, catch up with each other... And so our conversation moved on until we reached talking about relationships...And so there they are, talking about the ups and downs of relationships, the kilig moments... hanggang makarating sa usapang marriage.. Whenever marriage is the topic, my mind will just fly away and dream of what my wedding would be like and who will my husband be..I would just let out a sigh... knowing that that perfect one for me didn't come yet..or maybe he's already there... just waiting for God's perfect time.. Sabi nga ng friend ko, malapit na daw ang expiration date namin... I just laughed at that... And made me think, yeah, time is moving so fast.. I better get going if I want it to make it on my target age of getting married... But still, God made my heart at peace.. holding on to His promises, He will make all things beautiful in His time...

Thinking of God's plan for me is making me always excited and tensed... There's that feeling na I can't wait. Gusto ko ngayon na.. But God is telling, just be still and know that I am God. Sometimes, gusto ko ng gumalaw, but wait. God has something wonderful if you just wait... just wait and see ..somewhere ... beautiful and perfect things will be yours forever... Just wait...

Thursday, July 07, 2005
"All Things Work Together For Good For Those Who Love Him"

This phrase is continually ringing into my mind...Someone has told me, not once, but a lot of times already... just to remind me....

Just to remind me once again...Through all my past, through all the heartaches, pain, sorrow, joy and happiness..

All things work together for good....

Friday, July 01, 2005
hello guys!!!! miss me? hehehe...

been really, really busy at work and church... really.. that's why no time to blog na...

oh my, there's too much to say that I can't put it into words.. Heheh..

Been so blessed in many areas of my life... Really feel so blessed... Graaaabbeeee!!! Hehehe..

I'm just so happy..really happy... as in happy to the max!

Kung sa iba love moves in mysterious ways, sakin e God moves in mysterious ways.. napakamysterious talaga... things will happen na hindi mo expected.. God is really exciting! He really is!

My emotions are overflowing...Haaay...

Anyway, wanna see some pics.. ok, here are some...

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with my bessie at Ramada

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reunion with my fellow highschoolmates at Ramada

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me and my bessie fooling around in my car and with her camera...hehehe

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dining with my highschool classmates..namiss ko talga tong mga to

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this is what's keeping me busy... heheh...

till the next update! i missed blogging..hope i can get back on track

see yah guys!